The sun’s been shining incessantly all morning, my lawn is a mess of grass being drowned in the dew and the flowers are floating away because the crisp fall is certainly coming. Roughly around 6AM, foggy windows woke me up and since then I have spent the majority of the day wishing the sun would go away so I can stomp around in puddles or lay in my back yard and catch a cold.
I have been waiting for a break in the weather for so long that I think I might get struck by lightening.
I am in need of affection today. Before, when I gave hugs I used to press my nose closely into their shoulder so I could smell their scent and remember how that moment had been between us. Human flesh and closeness work dangerously together. Those moments between us mean more to me than shaky light over the horizon at dawn. I wonder why I stopped giving hugs with my whole heart. I am unavailable for things like this.
To whom it may concern,
I want to hug you while we sleep and press myself closely into your neck and capture your scent inside my heart’s walls.
with sincerity, almost love
N.
I want to find love in deep seas with still water.
